Hot fat girl with high sex drive and higher IQ seeks rough, dominant man to wet her “appetite” with talk of science, religion, and politics before slamming her up against a wall or over a couch and then making her gag on her “words”. And then he must leave.

If I lived in San Francisco, NYC, Austin, Seattle, Portland, or Atlanta, I would post this. But not here in the Buckle of the Bible Belt.

I have spent a good bit of the day talking with fellow pervy people on Facebook, and I have to tell you, it feels GOOD!!!!!!!

Dating sites are creeping me out a bit, but talking with “my people” cheers me on and reminds me that I am not the only freak in the world, and I will find other freaks to share this journey. And hopefully some to fuck :)

I have decided to keep posting. I know, I know, all of you can barely contain your joy and excitement. However, the focus shall change a bit.

As those of you who know me personally are aware of, I am currently going through an unbelievably amicable, and yet unbelievably painful, divorce. Yes, from the man I have waxed on and on about. He is still all of those things, and more, and will always be the father of my children, and one of the great loves of my life. But sometimes people change, and sometimes they don’t. Enough about that.

So I am now single. Alone. Solo. Solitario. Alleen. Ei ben ei hun.*

So now that I am single, I could just rush into the fucking frenzy like a shark in a . . .  fucking frenzy? But I think not. I think it is time I slowed down, put on the Barry White, Rhianna, and Maroon 5 (don’t you judge me!) and remember my sexuality as defined by me. And only me for a while. Ok, going hardcore withdrawal on the cock might be asking too much of myself, but I am enjoying the Lelo Siri, the world’s best vibrator for picky clits! So maybe I can hold out for a while, at least until I get my head on straight.

Right? I mean it IS possible to go a couple of months without sex, right? RIGHT???

* Did you know about google translate?

This site has been the chronicle of a phase in my life – that of a wife discovering her sexuality. However, where we end up is not always where we intended on going.

I am ending this blog, although I have not yet decided whether or not to pull it completely or leave it up for posterity. I am certain I will write again, and most assuredly about sex, but the tale of this particular trip is over.

Thanks for enjoying the ride :)

Via the always aroused girl herself aagblog.com, a new tumblr called Hello, Salty Goodness :) Salty.

I am in Seattle for a conference, and my loins are aflame. This city is chock full of hot geeky guys, cute butch girls, and more genderqueer hotties than I can shake a strap-on at!

Add to that the fact that I have attended two burlesque shows, and I am missing my man something fierce!

Hot things I have seen:

The Luminous Pariah Continue reading Sexy Seattle

A friend of mine recently claimed she has had fifteen years worth of dating in under two years. She made a list of what she has learned.  It is a VERY good list and rings true to me in many ways.

1) My sexuality truly is mine and mine alone. I used to think it was an asset, i.e. that I was more valuable if I was better in bed, or would be considered a more desirable person. The only self-esteem bolstering I can get from my sexuality is based on my being true to it. However, people wanting to fuck me says nothing about how they actually feel about ME.

2) Men do not have to like you or even find you attractive to want to fuck you. This can be confusing for naive people.

3) Competing for cock is ridiculous. There is plenty of cock. More than enough in fact.

Really people - cock is everywhere.

4) People show you who they are, even when you do not want to see it. Pay attention.

5) Sex can be 100% technically great and still not be good for me. By that same token, I can have sex with someone with ED or other issues, and it be mind blowing. Without sounding too woo, sex is about energy for me, not just pawing at meaty parts. Meaty parts are nice too though.

6) And most importantly, if I was not me, I would totally fuck me. I would also fall madly in love with myself and remind myself constantly of just how adorable, sexy, precious, and important I am. However, this is WAY too much to expect of someone else.

So yesterday, someone on my FB posted this from the Daily Mail UK, with the headline “Oral Sex Causes Cancer!”:

A virus spread during oral sex is now the main cause of throat cancer in people under 50, scientists have warned.

They say the human papilloma virus spread during unprotected sex is to blame for a disturbing rise in potentially deadly oral cancers in the last few decades.

Doctors have called for boys to be vaccinated against HPV just like teenage girls to stop the spread of the disease.

It is important to understand though, that the act of sucking cock itself does not cause oral cancer. One must suck a cock of a person infected with one of the thousands of HPV viruses, and even then, it only increases your risk – it is not a straight shot from cock sucking to cancer!

But then today, another FB friend posted a link to an old CNN story that claims that cock sucking REDUCES your risk of breast cancer! Quick, everyone, to your knees!!!

Women who perform the act of fellatio and swallow semen on a regular basis, one to two times a week, may reduce their risk of breast cancer by up to 40 percent, a North Carolina State University study found.

Again, read the fine print – it is not the act of sucking a cock that “protects” you against breast cancer, it is the swallowing of semen on a regular basis. How one obtains the semen hardly seems relevant. In fact, I can think of several ways to receive your recommended weekly allowance of semen that do not involve cock sucking at all!

• Have your male lover jack off onto your face, and then scoop all of the semen into your mouth. Having done this, I highly recommend it.
• Have your male lover jack off into his own hand, feed his come to himself, and then kiss you with an open mouth so that you can BOTH get the benefit. Note, since the dosage is halved, you may need to increase application.
• Have your male lover fuck a female friend, come inside her, and then you go down on her and clean her up!
• Have your male lover fuck a MALE friend, come in HIS mouth, and then do a hot, sweaty, semeny three way kiss. As noted before, this reduces dosage, so an increase in application is required to achieve maximum benefit.
• Finally, you could have your male lover fuck a male or female friend in the ass, and then you lick their ass and take all the semen from it.

Now clearly, all of the above acts are risky from an STD standpoint, especially the last one, which adds Hep B to the line up of normal STD risks. Perhaps people could just go to sperm banks, where everything has been tested and deemed clean. But drinking come out of a test tube?

Gross.